the tabloids, first disgust me and make me laugh. obession is pointless. i know, i know "well if they bother you so much then don`t read them." yeah well it`s still annoying. you can`t go out anymore without turning the corner and see who`s dating who. who cares? it`s there personal lives, let them do what they wanna do. like i`ve said i could care less if so and so is dating so and so who`s dating this person. like wow, it seems now-a-days if your pictured with someone you`re dating them.

rap music has gotten to an all time low. it`s degrating and disrespectful to women in general. to women as a whole. calling another woman a bitch and a hoe is disgusting. no one has the right. those words are thrown around a little to much. i was watching an episode on vH1 the other day about video models, and this woman made a good point. she said., the music indestry tells us sex sells, yeah well crack sells does that make it right? it`s true. a women doesn`t have to shake her ass in a camera just to be noticed. and a women doesn`t have to be sexy to get a man.

my last topic. i`m so tired of the word gay being thrown around like a term for something bad or shitty. calling someone gay for acting stupid is ignorant. it`s degrating for the people out there who are gay. it makes us feel like shit. like being gay is wrong, um no sorry it`s not. your born gay and there`s no changing that. also i`ve heard people say having gay friends will turn a straight person gay. what the fuck?, you can`t catch 'the gay'. that`s idiocracy at it`s finest. being gay it`s a deciese, it`s not a choice, it`s who you are. my bestfriend and i are both bi and our other bestfriend is straight, perfect example.

people need to open there eyes and grow up.

ew, and me being a loser is stressing over a haircut. i`m so worried it won`t come out right, lmfao. who cares? i mean it`s just hair right and i`m sure i could pull it off. haha...

so i thought maybe if i listen to some slow songs i could fall asleep, haha... ugh no didn`t work. so i`m awake listening to slow music, kinda lame. maybe i`ll write a song, yeah a song about pepsie and chips. lmfaoo, oh wow loser much. no more like bored much. and just my luck no one is on! i need to find some form of entertainment, maybe while i`m writing my song i`ll make a bracelet. sounds like a good ol` time. okay so now my headphones are itching my ear and it`s irritating. i`m pretty much rambling which is something i never do. only when i`m bored.

my pepsie song.

p-p-p-pepsie, oh i wish i had some of you.
pepsie yes pepsie if you only knew.
add some salty chips and a good show,
soon enough i`ll be the happiest girl you know!

p-p-p-pepsie you`re so tasty,
i promise oh i promise i won`t waste the.
chips are good to fill up my tummy,
i can`t wait to take a bite, they look so yummy!

LMFAOOO SO MY SONG/POEM IS PRETTY AWESOME!

first off, you can`t figure someone out you hardely know.
also, you can`t figure someone out that doesn`t even have thereself figured out.

i try not to judge and i try not to hate people, but i`m sorry these certain people have the word hate me written across there forhead.

next friday i`m getting my hair trimmed and maybe do a little of a change to it. i`m not sure yet because i love my hair, it`s unique. it kinda has a mind of it`s own i`d say. haha, but yeah i`m gunna get it re-layered and then maybe a bang. ugh, doubt it though. i`m dyeing my hair back to black and blonde. i missed it way to much. those colors are probably my favorite that i`ve had. i mean most of my pictures i have that hair so i`m going back because it`s what i like.

so yes california will be a breath of fresh of air, i`ll just be able to get away. i`ll be able to go to the beach and clear my head, scream at the top of lungs if i feel like it. i`ll be with the 3 people i love most, so i know i`ll have a good time.

six flags for my birthday, YEAH! i`m beyond excited because i`ve never been there. i`m gunna be bummed if i can`t go the day of my birthday, which is looking like it`s not gunna happen. so i`ll probably end up going that weekend which will be april 14th or that monday. either way i don`t care, i just wanna go!

17 years old, wow almost an adult and time to do some real growing up. i`m gunna get a job when i come back from california, then really focus on school and hopefully get my vocal coaching. we`ll see how all that goes though. if it`s to expensive i`m gunna have to wait until i get my job and can help pay for them.

april 28th, yes! i get my hair done, i`m happy. red extentions, just something different, something new. i`ve never put extentions in my hair before so i can`t wait to see how they turn out. then april 29th it`s concert time! we`re gunna party it up that night.

april is gunna be a good month, i`m excited. i`ts giving me something to look forward to and it`s keeping me with a smile on my face.

if i found out the world hated me, right now at this moment, i wouldn`t care. i`d brush it off as if it were nothing and move onto the next. pretty much my world hates me, why would the rest be any different. i love the fact that everyone smiles in my face, compliments me left and right, then has some type of shit to talk as soon as my back is turned. quite frankly i don`t care anymore. i`m starting to love it, because at least i know that i`m on your mind, and for the most part you`re no where to be seen in mine. i`ve given up on making people smile, now it`s time to focus on myself. i make the people i love and that love me in return, they`re the ones that deserve smiles. not all of you.

feelings for tonite;

people are over-rated.
tired.
i have a headache.
my school work is over whelming me.
i`m hungry.
i wish i had someone here with me.

AND BY THE WAY,  I PREVIOUSELY SAID. I`LL MEET YOU IN HELL BITCH!

please continue to talk shit about me, and bring up something that is over and done with a day ago. but yeah say you hate me, say you can`t stand me, because honestly right now. i don`t care, you`re just another person breathing in all my good air. and then blowing smoke back into it. thank you for giving me lung cancer you fucking asshole, 2nd hand smoke is one of leading killers in america! fucking...prick. and oh yeah, i never said i didn`t like your music, i just said it was emo. that is a compliment ALL MUSIC IS EMOTIONAL! jeeze, get over yourself you agrogant, fugly, self centered losers. no better yet go get a life, stop drinking and smoking and go get a damn job! grow some fucking maturaty, you`re how old? 17 and 19 ummmm yeah, that looks like a good time to uh, GROW THE FUCK UP!

personally we don`t care if your in our lives because unlike you we don`t need to talk shit about other [like yourselves] to make us feel better. we already know that you`re a nobody. we don`t need to preach it to the world.

this is not a blog to put someone on blast, this is a blog to get some steam out.